Princess Diana's Tapes Reveal - Then She Was Four Months Pregnant She Threw Herself Downstairs

• 06.14.2017, 19:03
•  Europe,  World

Daily Mail

The British Famous Newspaper "The Daily Mail" has published the text of Princess Diana's tapes which reveals her utter despair at her own marriage.

Third extract from the tapes begins with Diana recalling her stay at Sandringham, the Queen's Norfolk residence, in January 1982.

''When I was four months pregnant with William I threw myself downstairs, trying to get my husband's attention, for him to listen to me.

I had told Charles I felt so desperate and I was crying my eyes out. He said I was crying wolf. 'I'm not going to listen,' he said. 'You're always doing this to me. I'm going riding now.'

So I threw myself down the stairs.

I knew what was wrong with me, but nobody else around me understood me. I needed rest and to be looked after inside my house and for people to understand the torment and anguish going on in my head.

It was a desperate cry for help. I'm not spoiled — I just needed to be allowed to adapt to my new position.

I don't know what my husband fed her (the Queen). He definitely told her about my bulimia. And she told everybody that was the reason why our marriage had cracked up, because of Diana's eating, and it must be so difficult for Charles.

On the outside, people were saying I gave my husband a hard time, that I was acting like a spoiled child. But I knew I just needed rest and patience and time to adapt to all the roles that were required of me overnight.

We had a few trying-to-cut-wrists, throwing things out of windows, breaking glass (she once threw herself against a glass display cabinet at Kensington Palace). I gave everybody a fright.

I couldn't sleep. I just never slept. I went for three nights without any sleep at all. I had no fuel to sleep on.

I had so many dreams as a young girl that I wanted and hoped — this, that and the other, that my husband would look after me. He would be a father figure and he'd support me, encourage me, say: 'Well done', or 'No, it wasn't good enough'.

But I didn't get any of that. I couldn't believe it. I got none of that. It was role reversal. He ignores me everywhere. Ignored everywhere, and have been for a long time.

The night before, I'd wanted to talk to Charles about something. He wouldn't listen to me.

So I picked up his penknife off his dressing table and scratched myself heavily down my chest and both thighs. There was a lot of blood — and he hadn't made any reaction whatsoever՛՛, the Princess said.